Stupid Mistakes i Make......

Have you ever made stupid mistakes in your life?? Of course u do........everyone does and i just did........today..........and it almost costs me someone i cherish and love, the love of my life........

What started as an insensitive blatant joke bursts and blow out of proportion.......and i hurt him. Yes, though i hate to admit it, i hurt him bad. I never intent to hurt someone i love so much and when i realised he was maybe gonna utter those dreaded words, i burst into tears.......knowing maybe.........maybe i will lose him forever. And i havent even posted him our 1st year anniversary present, knowing he will love it because i know how much he wanted it. I was so excited thinking about his reaction and expression when he opens his present and say how much he loves it.

You can't imagine how much he means to me. He has been a great bf, a great support and comfort and the thought of losing him was so great, i cant stop crying even as i am typing right now. What am i gonna do now blog? I don't know what to do.......am lost...........and afraid.....

Now i know the power of words, how words can either nurture or destroy........and i shall always remember that.......